Depressiing? good or bad?

Uve created this world but for what i ask. We sit here and suffer u watch us while it buffers. No pain no gain i dont see no gain. I see a world covered in pain. Forgive me my sins i just cant life bins. Ive done my best to just be good but im sorry i just need food. Ive beem abandoned i would say.i just sit here watch and pray. The world goes by me ever so slowly i wish it would come now the time to go. Ive had enough now the siffering is over. Tonight is the nite i end it all. U sit there and wonder what am i thinking. I end my life and start a new. Anywhere awey from u. Ive drowned my sorrows but it doesnt do please i just hate you. I live for one person and it is not u. Im sorry this is for u. I give u ure life back and walk awey smiling. Ive won this battle. Fight for survivel. The only way out is to study the bible. Il look down from heaven and say hello but for now il bid u farewell. I hope everything doesnt go well. If i meet u again il run but i warn u il shoot my gun. Help me again and il go even faster but for now god ure just a basterd:(